2018 Review: My Biggest Accomplishment and Failure

Whew, we are done with 2018 which means its time for a 2018 review. We made it from January to December, although it seems 2018 went from January and jumped straight to December. was it only me or 2018 felt more like a decade, not a year? I mean so many things happened, both good and bad but I am grateful we all made it to 2019.

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So How Was 2018 For Me?

it was a train wreck. 2018 hit me with breakthroughs and failure. 2018 more like threw me in a river and I had no idea what will happen next. I could be having the most amazing day but in a flash, bad news will turn everything grey. “how are you?’ was a question I had no “I am good” answer to because I could jinx it. 2018 was unnerving, unsettling, challenging and a year of self-discovery.

2018 Review: My Biggest Accomplishment and Failure.
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2018 Review: My Biggest Accomplishment and Failure
2018 Review: My Biggest Accomplishment and Failure

FAILURE

Failure for me this year was losing consistency in all areas of my life. I lost consistency in my education, relationship, blogging, and career.

2017 was my year. 2017 started on a high note.  I graduated with first class in my undergraduate. However, That made me relent. I stopped seeking knowledge and development, and when it reflected in my master’s coursework grade, I was ashamed. How could a first class student get 30/100? I shut down.

2018 started on a bad note, it started with me struggling with my masters. I guess too much education burned me out because immediately after my undergraduate I went straight to masters. it was a lot of change and the education format was totally different.

To top it off I received the shock my degree was more theoretical than practical, it involved a lot of writing which is not my strength. I prefer using pictures to communicate than words.

Can I just say, please don’t rush into a masters degree, ensure you are physically and mentally ready, especially if your master’s education format will be different to your undergraduate? 

Although I passed my master’s degree (ALHAMDULILAH), it was a true test of my patience, perseverance, discipline, mental health and ability to adapt.

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Blogging is amazing but It involves knowing how to write. As I mentioned above words are not my strength, I prefer using pictures to talk. However, for your blog to rank high in google search engine, you have to be good at writing. I was not good, words were not flowing and I became reluctant to write, then I crowned it all by doing a lot of comparisons.

Reading other blogs made me feel insecure about my blog, in addition, views were not coming. The whole lot just made me withdrew from blogging and social media, forgetting nothing comes easy.

As if all this was not enough, I struggled with body image.

My body is one of the body that inhale water and add 1kg, so it is hard to lose weight and keep it off. Initially, in 2017, I lost weight due to low-carb diet but I gained everything back, since then it has been a constant battle to get back to my lowest weight.

Unfortunately, I could not get the hack of keeping off the weight, I was always on a diet. Always trying to lose weight. Always body conscious, Always trying to love my body But I couldn’t continue like that. I strived to strike a balance because I was tired of not loving my body, tired of not living in the moment and tired of hiding when I gain weight.

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My Relationship with friends suffered. Due to the state of my mental health, I lost contact with a lot of friends. Most times, conversation and keeping up was a chore. Due to the lack of communication from my side, I lost contact with a lot of friends. However, for the friends that didn’t give up on me, I am grateful.

All in all, 2018 was a lot of strain on my mental health. But in spite of everything I had some major wins.

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MY ACHIEVEMENTS

I know reading all that, you must feel, didn’t you have some wins? I did. 2018 was a year of collaboration, created amazing contents in collab Nigerian brands here. Published really helpful blog posts on styling here, fashion here and editing apps here. Grateful for the community I grew through my blog. “THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALWAYS ENGAGING MY POSTS!”

However, I realized I had to work for the wins. I had to contact brands for collaborations (if you want tips on the process of securing brand collaboration, let me know in the comment section) and I had to fight for my happiness everytime.

Also, analyzing all the feelings and 2018 events, I realized there were a pattern and a trigger and in order to feel more secure, I had to break the pattern. I needed to find myself, my consistency and my strength.

Anytime, I felt like a failure, I strived to learn new things, do more research and ask questions.

I don’t feel too big to learn or ask, I am constantly learning, researching and challenging myself. Always striving to be body positive, because being body positive is not easy.

But now, I don’t stress about losing or gaining weight. My focus is on what makes happy if taking ice cream is what will make me happy, I take it but I don’t overdo.

The main gist is nothing will come easy, not career success, not education success, nor body positivity, good mental health, self-love or human relationships but the first step is admitting there is a problem and finding ways to fix it. and there is always a solution. ALWAYS.

So is it a new year, new me. No, it is a new year new improvements.

And I hope you learned from my experience also share with me any tips you have on being body positive and maintaining relationships in the comment section.

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24 Comments

  1. Jumobi
    January 2, 2019 / 7:08 am

    اَلْحَمْدُلِلّهِ It will get better. You say writing isn’t your strength, I look at myself and 😭
    About body confidence, almost anybody that saw me last year had something to say, unconsciously I’ll start defending myself and all. All good 😁
    It was a tough 2018 here. Grateful. Doing more this here and hopefully things will fall in place ‎أن شاء الله
    Here’s wishing you all the goodness this year and yonder 🥂

    • January 2, 2019 / 7:19 am

      Thank you. Same here, i was constantly defending myself and trying to explain why i look slim sometimes and fat sometimes. But grateful we still here. Thank you and same to you

  2. Abibat
    January 2, 2019 / 8:48 am

    Awwww …Sister 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 We thank Allah 🙏🏽… May Allah crown your effort 🧡🧡

  3. January 2, 2019 / 9:05 am

    You did really amazing 2018 even if it was below your expectations. I’ve watched you closely and I know you put in a lot of work even if you aren’t where you want to be yet. You deserve a lot of credits and it only gets better. My 2018 was filled with ups and downs and I frankly don’t know how I’ll go about writing a review but looking at your pattern, I might just give it a shot. Thanks for sharing. 2019 will be filled with uncountable achievements for us. Amen!

    • January 2, 2019 / 9:41 am

      You should, I always enjoy reading your posts. And thank you for the amazing compliments. Amen!

  4. Aramide
    January 2, 2019 / 9:21 am

    2018 was such a roller coaster for a lot of us. I can write a whole novel of the highs and lows and how it all planned out. I’m really grateful for the year but I’m still not in the new year feels. I really don’t know why. Maybe I feel it would all be the same. I also feel the year would be better but let’s wait and see. You did amazing in 2018 to the best of my knowledge. I just recently started following you and I think you wear your body beautifully. I love that. Barakallah feek and more wins for us all this year amen. Brand colabs? Welppppp!!!

    • January 2, 2019 / 9:48 am

      It was really a roller coaster! i am also trying to get into the groove but it is not clicking. however i have realized if we are not enthusiastic/positive, good things may not come. we have to be happy for happiness to come and i know it will! This year will be filled with goodness

  5. Zee
    January 2, 2019 / 9:25 am

    I’m so proud of you Idiboo , 2019 will be better than 2018 physically , mentally & financially babyy!😘❤️💪🏾

    • January 2, 2019 / 9:48 am

      Amen! Thank you babes and i am super proud of you too.

  6. Zaynab
    January 2, 2019 / 10:16 am

    You’re amazing Idayat💕. Life knocked you hard but you got back up! Looking forward to your contents this year❤️.

  7. January 2, 2019 / 11:52 am

    Playing a game i hated because i thought was too hard on my phone this morning, I hissed and lamented at the first few plays because it was just as expected. Then suddenly I beat my high score once. It didn’t change anything
    until I gradually became engrossed. Beat my high score like 6 times more and eventually at every new play I realised it became easier; no, I became better. The game never changed. My point is, it doesn’t just get better, in fact in never does. We are the ones who learn
    and grow to become better than the system. We build a coping mechanism so good you’ll think we never failed. I hope and pray that’s just how it’s going to be for everyone who struggled through the previous year. I hope you get better😊. Ps; your art is beautiful.

    • January 2, 2019 / 5:59 pm

      So true, practice builds success. Thank you and i wish you the same❤️

  8. Dhikraa
    January 2, 2019 / 4:07 pm

    I am glad you didn’t give up, also glad you are positive about 2019!
    2018 was a train wreck for a whole lot of us I guess, despite the achievements, there were too many drowns.
    I love it when people put out stuffs like this to motivate people like me!
    Thank You So Much!
    May Allah make 2019 an awesome one!

    • January 2, 2019 / 6:00 pm

      Amin. Glad you enjoyed this post!

  9. January 2, 2019 / 8:06 pm

    Babe!! If you know how much your growth in 2018 inspired me. You’ll be stunned, I feel although you may have felt many lows from last year. I want you to know that you thrived. And have come out better for it. You’ve found your identity, your voice and I know there is so much more you’re going to do. God bless you this year

    • January 2, 2019 / 8:10 pm

      Omg thank you so muchh ugochi. I am so proud of you too. Amin and God bless you too❤️

  10. Maryam
    January 3, 2019 / 9:09 am

    Sis, the fact that you were able to finish 2018, write about it, publish it on your blog only shows how Relentless you are. I hope this 2019 brings more smiles and fulfilment.
    To a great year ahead 🥂

  11. January 4, 2019 / 9:55 am

    No one truly knows or sees our struggles unless we tell our story. Glad you still had some good moments and memories of 2018, it can only get better in sha Allah. Wish you an amazing 2019.

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